So This Is What Death Feels Like

Requested from RaraCloe. Rexsoka fanfiction ^^

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So This Is What Death Feels Like.

His heart told him of guilt. Guilt that thudded through himself as he ran towards her slow falling body. It had happened too quickly too soon. First it had been the ever-growing confidence that had sprung through her movements, the small grin that had etched upon her face and the wink she had sent towards him. If he hadn’t have been wearing his helmet then his face would have radiated the blush that had crept upon his face. Next had been the sudden turn of events that sent her spinning round to face the droids. Rain had begun to slowly drip down the side of his helmet as he watched her elegantly slice through a droid. She always looked so elegant in the heat of battle to him, skilled, smooth and perhaps hypnotizing to watch as he dodged from the rain of fire that seemed to be aimed for his heart. He heard the tinkle of metal as a velvet box rubbed against his arm painfully; he felt it ride up his arm as he moved quickly behind a tree and stuffed his hand up his armour. He felt the box and pulled it out, feeling the weight spread across his hand. It was perfect. He would have to wait. Wait for the right moment to take her aside and ask.
“Hey Rex how you hanging in there?” the sweet voice shouted over to him making him turn to her and see her sending him a grin. Her beautiful curved body seemed to dance with the rain across the barren wasteland of Umbara and send him to his our small world. His vision would be a family, a family that would live long under the Jedi’s protection. Then the shot rang out. A shot that pierced his heart as he watched it like a slow motion replay or a broken record. He felt his legs snap as they ran towards her fallen body as it slowly fell to the ground. His finger pulled the trigger of his twin blasters, taking off the heads of several droids.
“Give me cover” Rex shouted to his men in the 501st feeling the tears begin to weld in his eyes as he threw his weapons aside and caught her body. It felt warm, but he felt the heat of her body run dry from the rain that fell around them. “No, no, no don’t do this to me Ahsoka” he cried out, holding onto her body tightly and removing his helmet from his head. All true emotions were release through his expression. Angst and pain spread across his chest. It hurt too much to even think. He was going to ask her, ask her after the battle in a secluded area of their camp. Ask if she would marry him. Her breathing slowed slightly but her eyes flickered slightly to show him her pain.
“Rex” she whispered gently, taking her hand and placing it upon his cheek, smooth textures turned cold.
“Shh” Rex said, placing a finger upon her lips.
“Rex please, I just want you to know I love you” Ahsoka began, coughing slightly and spreading blood across his clean armour. He didn’t care.
“Ahsoka, I I love you too. I wanted to ask you after the battle…” Rex felt tears drip down his face as he dug round his armour for the velvet box and opened it. “If you would marry me?” sobs echoed through his ears as he saw Ahsoka’s small smile spread across her face as she took her hand to his face again. The ring was simple. A small emerald encrusted in the centre with small diamonds around the edge and gold pigments dotted round.
“Rex I would love that more than anything in the world” Ahsoka gasped out, small tears dripping down her cheeks as she pulled him in for a kiss and let his lips spread across her own. He took her hand in his own and slipped the ring over her finger, feeling her hands grow cold at his touch. “Remember Rex, I will be with you in the force always” she said simply as she let her lungs take one last breath and collapsed in his arms.
“Ahsoka? AHSOKA” Rex cried out, tears spilling over his cheeks. He felt something warm brush past his face, the 501st were retreating.
“Captain we must go” a clone had shouted over the battle as he ran over and tried to prise him from Ahsoka’s body.
“No I will stay with my wife”
“Wife sir?”
“Yes now go” and at that a warm glow had hit him through the heart, searing though his veins and bones. He’d cried out in pain and gripped tightly to Ahsoka’s hand. “I love you Soka, I’m coming” he said as he felt tears fall again. ‘So this is what death feels like’ Rex thought to himself as he fell beside Ahsoka’s still body still gripping tightly onto her hand, never letting go.
So this is what death feels like.